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The Disability Coming out process

Hi my name is Val and I have a disabiliy. I have said those words so many times on panels to people, my disability primarly means I have auditory, visual, and kenetic dyslexia. I see things backwards, hear things differently, and letters occassionally jump up and down and all around. Those words are things I say all the time now in disability Q and A it happens for most of my friends, coworkers, the random classes, trainings , and the random people who interview me. I probably have said those words at least 10 times this year alone. It is so much a part of my idenity to the world it has almost become something visual I become "the disability girl" at every college or group I join because I go and say this isn't accessible I make the changes for myself and other. I am open about my disability and knowledgeable about others. I make a point of caring and reading ADAG and disability rights history books on my free time(yes, I know I am a geek).
I made the point a while ago t…

Church and Ears

So for awhile about 14 years I have been dizzy, I am never not dizzy I just am dizzy. There are certain things that set it off mainly to do with ears, having too much wheat, going on an airplane, turning quickly, and organ music. Now I love my church it is this really cool old church that I have gone to for as long as I can rememeber. It was built in the 30s and is completly made of stone and has the second largest organ in the US and it is very cool.
If the guy who plays the organ plays low tones together then I get majorly dizzy and have passed out. My church is huge and has 2 masses that do not do this to me so I try to go to those ones. For the last 3-7 Christmases we go to this one mas where one of the bands from the 2 masses I usually go to is singing to avoid the dreded organ. However they switched it and there was no way to check it. I hate it cause I have to wander around the church and not being able to pray. I guess it is sorta silly I have tried other parishes but around h…

Happy Holidays: Proffessors the good the bad and the Ugly 3

So I tend to talk about the bad of teachers and proffessors but here is an example of the good. I had a proffessor in college he was my Political Science and Philosphy proffessor. It was about a 200 person class and there are 2 test both esay tests. The way it works for requesting accomodations in college is you go to the disability services office every semester and get a form that says what you need in the class and you give that to your proffessors. I gave my sheet to this proffessor and he came off very curious and responded I have never had a student with a learning disability before how does this work. I explained that before each test I give you a form and then you walk the test and form over to this office on campus. He says okay but he is confused by the office I say I will walk you and the test over but I can't take over the test because the disability services.
So I walk him to the office and he is really nice and talks to me while we are doing this. Then when I get ther…

GATTACA: Spoilers

So the movie , when we look at the movie it brings up the important issue of if we can control what a person has in terms of ability or disability are we better off? The other thing that it brings out that was once not a "disability" became a disability because everyone else was so perfect. So it looks at both a man who had a "defect" because he had a high probability of heart diesease. He is seen to have a disability and is discriminated from the work force so he pretends to be someone else who is someone with the perfect genetics that had failed. That for the guy he took over his life of he was supposed to be so perfect but he didn't have any ambition and tried to comit sucide because he felt he was intitled to a more inperfect life and in the process becomes paralysised.
So then the question arises if the people who aquire disabilities later in life would be worse off in a society that tries to eliminate disabilities from birth but not by accident. However t…

superhero, disability, moster, supercrip, tinny tim,normal?

In the last week I watched Mosters vs Aliens. I think today I have been thinking about the idea of superpowers, abilities and disabilities. What is the idea of a superpower? We see it all the time in a superhero movie guy or gal x gets hit, bitten, and dropped in vat of supergenic goop; horible consiquences she or he becomes a mutant or deformed or some how hurt beyond repair but magically instead of having a server problem these people can fly, shoot out webs, or become liquid.
There is a lot of time this arch of this is the worst thing that happened to me, oh wait this is kinda cool tooo, but there is bad parts "Oh look saved the world" maybe this is just how it is. When I see these movies mosters vs alien being example this week, I always think of disability. I see a lot of comparisions of the abilities you see the advantage and disadvantage easier then others say the ability to fly, the disabilities you wonder is this really an advantage at all, and the ones everyone tr…

Teachers and administrators: the good the bad and the ugly 2

So today, I am out of sorts going through the I did everything right I got the jobs, the activities and 3 degrees all of which with a 3.0 or higher. Here I am job searching and I can't seem to find the jobs that will allow me to help people, which is what I want to do..... and when I get down I hear my third grade teacher in my head telling me that I am stupid. I think we all have someone in our head telling we are stupid or at least most LD kids do. So this is reflection on the bad teacher number 1.
I was 2 years after being dignosed coming off of my 2nd grade teacher who was amazing and really worked with me and was the first person who made learning fun to me. My 3rd grade teacher didn't belive in learning disabilities told me and my mom that we were faking it. That all I needed was more work. I will remind you this is the same girl who at this time was working at least 5 hours a night on homework.(after grade school, getting a masters is a piece of cake ;) a lot less work…

Community and humor

So I talk about disability a lot the joys the pains. I guess this blog is kind of a non chronological diary of sorts. So when I think of comunity of disability I think of a room at Michigan State with 30 people with disabilities, the first time I meet my couple high school friends who were LD, and I think of a friend of mine with one arm who danced and swam in high school. Until high school disability was something I was affraid of, embarased of, and thought the whole world was something that would never be able to get me. Then I meet people who had disabilities and were nonappologetic, like I was slowly becoming. I started to here disability jokes of people laughing about rolling over people with wheelchairs and laughing at their own mistakes. All of a sudden a world opened up for me. I was mainstreamed my entire life, I went to handwriting camp when I was little but until high school and college I never felt I was understood. I was passing, I was passing into a world where I felt I…